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posted : Monday, June 29, 2009
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And of course, thanks to my never-forget laopo,
VANESSA ;DDDD - - - P ,Let 's talk like this forever.. |
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'Yooooooow! ;DD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANI!!, Ohmygaww, my teddy bear grew a year older. T,T And stupid shani teddy, stop pulling my cheeks. TOT Thanks mann Ramesh for advise on the phone. Thanks to Farees for advise to 'A' tooo. :DD I 'm in my ultrahyper mode today, nothing good happened, actually. I got scolded in the freaking early morning at home, reached school, more scoldings. My uncle scold me for being last minute, its not last, nobody is gonna die yet. Ms Kwok scolding me for forgetting everything, its not I forgot everything, its I was absent. No more scoldings already, but the nag was abit long. - - - - I laugh and cry alot nowadays, hahah. I 'm alien, aliens are weird. ;DDD Yesterday was stressed, yesss, S-T-R-E-S-S-E-D! DD; Now, I 've to choose, he or he. Yeesss, it 's very stressful. I was curious since when I could choose, nobody wants me. DDD; Okay, that 's childish. :O They says my present, P, is better, { it 's i _' him, not he _' me, FYI } because I 'm those type emo and angry, which I totally don 't agree w it, I 'm sooooo freaking hyper. Continue, so he could cheer me upp, he 's a joker, hahahaha. They says my past ,W, is better, he takes care of me real good, gentleman, also funny. But, he still left me w memories to forget, which the memories were sweet, unforgetable. Can say so, I cry because of those past W gave me. Can also say, I smile because of these time P gave me. Nownownownow, I 'm too stress. - - - I know who to choose already!! O,O My bestf Ramesh is the best choice, he 's funny, caring, gentleman but i see him call me 'PIGG' abit not happy. - - Fortunately, he 's my bestf forever as long as i 'm still born pigg. ;B I miss you man! O,o |
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posted : Friday, June 26, 2009
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Bad news first. D;
Michael Jackson had died, yes, that 's quite sad. Actually, I 'm not one of his fans but just loves his Moon Walk. Second is, Open House CANCELLED. Yes, bitch siah, practiced like crazy, all wasted. Luckily, they are trying their best to slot in our dance into National Day's dining w don 't know what presidents or Thanks Giving day. Some people ask me , how would you want a boy to confess to you. Okay, that 's kind of funny question. - - - Any way would be nice, even nicer, when all alone. Hahaha, on swing is real cool yeahh! Most girls might prefer w flowers, nah , I think thats outdated. Send message when he is actually just beside you is sweet, I 'm one of those who would blush seeing that message. - - - Went movie w Michelle D last couple of days, Ghost of Girlfriends Past, again. Today going for another movie w MichelleD Shani Yuhan Jiamin Patricia, DMTH, again. Hahahah, I 'm not rich watching them all again, just feels like, too nice. I can 't wait for nextnext week, Transformers 2. Wheeeee. : DD How long had it been, not seeing your face. </3 |
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posted : Monday, June 22, 2009
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Today was damn effing tired.
Class from 8am - 1o.3oam , going for lunch, chinese teacher call us gather in the class to give pig flu homework. Then she explain untill 1o.55am. 5more min recess finish, I dashed to canteen, just halfway there , the science enrichment teacher gather us already. Kiss goodbye, my breakfast. Science enrich until 1pm, when dismissed I dashed out again because dance practice starts at 1pm. - - - - Got to the hall, they started warming up so we just faster follow. Dancedancedance untill 4pm. My breakfast still not in my stomach yet. All the more, my hand is injured because there 's a part that I 've the lay on the floor from a standing position , w/i 4secs. Of course, i 've to slide , friction !! DD; After practice went Cheers eat breakfast , maggie. Say byebye then I left to my mama shop. We quarrelled , sight. So harsh that I cried from 5plus - 7plus. Yes, my eyes are swollen now, shit. I 'm just gonna have a early sleep today, hopefully. - - - - The science teacher is chio! Hehehe. Lame. :D One of my small dancers from the group says I look like an actress. Hahahahah. But if you are just here, these tiring days will be just nothing. <3 |
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posted : Sunday, June 21, 2009
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Woke up and made family's hourney to church.
LOL, then we went to Sakaesushi for Father's day. ;D Played w Francis all along, were so childish together. Went the meet my mama then meet up w Jinyi at Jooseng. Junwei lent me his PSP, so in w the Naruto fighting game. Oroshimaru was helpful, Tsunade was soso. - - - - He didn't come down, not much people came down so I went home, in the end Ramesh did. DDD; Aliyah said she is going to be my guitar teacher. Now I got 2teachers, Aliyah Ramesh. Found out that Aliyah wanted to play and sing for me too, but Ramesh was maybe gonna do it so She is thinking of something else now. Now, I just have to be my mama's girl for awhile so I can have 'it'. :DD Yesyesyesyes, I think I might be the happiest girl now. - - - - - - - - I didn 't see you for long time,<\3 Miss your smile , laugh, I would be on top of the world if you ever feel this way.. |
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posted : Saturday, June 20, 2009
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Today was oh-so-funnnn.
Suddenly (L) my peeps so much. Haha, I'm weird today. We played cards at the void deck. Marcus was real joke, Frazer was superduper funny. Linhan was friendlier than usual, Ramesh was funniest. Aliyah was crazier and more laughter from her, Vanessa was more childish and funnier, Shani was funny too. All of us keep laughing 'hehehe' since Shani started. Now, I feel so childish. My mama told me a good new. I got something I wanted for a longlong time, but can't get it till this july exam is over. - - - I can't wait man! Me and Ramesh supposed to go for movie tomorrow. I heard his exams were coming so I cancelled , he could study. He said he owe me and he will bring me out after exams. Invitations are unlimited, any interest can tag me. Should be watching either Transformer or Fighting. Can't believe I'm watching action movie. LOL! Ramesh also said my birthday gonna be the unique one, maybe he will be playing guitar and sing a song. :DD I (L) U Mannn Rameshhh! He's my bestf forever mann, hahahaha. - - - So I decided to play for him too, viva la vida, hehe. He loves that song, but now just wait for the exam to finish so I can get started. :DD The bad thing is, Aliyah is coming for my school's open house. Yes, Alleluia, I'm performing contemp' dance. Now Vanessa is starting the invitation. T-T - - - - - But, I'm just sooo happy now. Of course, I can't wait for my birthday again. :D My birthday song, hahahaha. - Everything just going so well, you and me. Talking and laughing, even its not face to face. I 've been hesitating, all these time. But now I know I made the correct choice falling for you. - - - - - - And I 'm sure this feelings gonna last long. <3 |
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posted : Friday, June 19, 2009
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Life wasn't quite good this few days.
My sickness ruined, everything. Watched Hannah M' Movie w Ramesh Vanessa. Ramesh was funny. Bought Farees' birthday present. Headed to Jooseng, I went Aliyah's house until 1o.45, played guitar. Almost 11, passed Farees the present. Aliyah walked me the bus stop. Went for Drag Me To Hell on wednesday w Shani Vanessa Vanessa's mama. It was crazy, I screamed, blahblah. Listened to song to hide the sound effects. Ghost movies freak me out, especially the thrilling. - - - - Today's. Woke up at around 7am. Went Jooseng w Jinyi to meet Shani at 7.3o Came back home w the two. Played and ate breakfast, 1oplus went AMK Hub, watched Ghost of Girlfriends Past. Seated at row G at first. Very little people. I went to another row to sit, alone. Movie ended, realised that I was sitting at row 'F' 13. Suppose to head to Shani's house, my body seemed heavy and felt sick, went home instead, but walked in the rain. Pauline asked me to watch movie not long later, I refused. Stayed home. - - - There's one guy messaged me. Said he likes me. Okay, its crazy. Who on earth is that guy? Creepy. |
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posted : Wednesday, June 17, 2009
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True love is when you shed a tear and still want him.
Its when he ignores you and still love him. Its when he loves that girl but you still smile and say "I'm happy for you" ,when all you really want to do is cry... and cry. - - - - Compare this love, its painful. Its the feeling of being burn in cold fire. Nothing would cure the pain. Counting the days of waiting is like counting the stars in galaxy. Everytime I see you, I would take a step back of waiting. Your eyes could tell, unwanted sight. This heart has a whole, a bigbig whole, each time I think of you and everything about you, the whole gets bigger, the pain grows worse. The uncontrolable feelings for you grows, wanted and needed. Like a tattoo in the heart, a colour in life, something that only has a way to be taken away, the painful way. No matter how sorrowful it might be, they wants to take it away. So to continue their life, get the tears dry up. And until that day, when this life doesn't need you, doesn't need anymore oxygen to survive. When this world would stop moving, when the Sun doesn't shine the light, when the tree colour are rainbow, when the rain would just freeze in the air, and that day, I will forget about you.. - - - - Baby, can you hear that heartbeat when I was near you ..? |
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posted : Monday, June 15, 2009
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I can't sleep. I mean it.
I lay on my bed until 5am, unsleep. Then I dreamt, about my birthday and of course, birthday presents. Woke up, its just 9am and I felt veryveryvery hot and thirsty. - - - Drank water. Okay, I was expecting myself back to sleep. I lay on my bed, cannot sleep!! DD; Nevermind, they say time is precious, I'm blogging now then, hahh ! - - - - - - Today is FIFTHTEEN,JUNEEE! :DD HAPPY BIRTHDAY , COUSIN PAULINE! See this your face in this picture we took @Golden Mile. You ain't a kid anymore, haha! Old Aunty. :) I know, whatever, you called me go ice skating. No joke, you want see me fall issit? Go enjoy yourself today with your friends, Its your day, your bigbig dayy! :B Lastly, hope you fulfill those cravings. Stay happy as through its nobody's business! :DD Yesyes, Chingching (L) Pauline. Cousin forever. Lame! :}  - - - - - - - Pauline Chia, I know you're reading. Tag lahh, need me tell you uh! Don't say anything once I walk in the room, please. - - - - - - - - I'm shy. :\ - - Teehee! :B |
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posted : Saturday, June 13, 2009
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Ciiaoooo! :D
In Aliyah's house now, playing guitars and stuff. Okay, it was funn at first but the chord coufusing me. DD; - - I think it will have to take time. Nevermind, take doesnot matterr. Teehee :D Once Aliyah bathe finish, she will be going down to help out at Farees' Sister wedding. Me? What else to do than going home? I can't stay numb there aite. LOL. Ramesh didn't come down today, like what he promised yesterday. D: Two full weeks to school reopenn and school open house. One more week to 4hours of whole-week dance practice. Actually its good, once school reopen. They make the dancers practice during school hours, which means no lessonn :DD Okay, no linkk. - - - - Whooopps, Aliyah's backk. DD; |
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posted : Friday, June 12, 2009
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                  I'm backkk, of course I'm back. :DD The photo-ing sucked, I don't have much skills. The third blogskins hitted 11o downloads in 3days! :B We actually went to SAF seaview resort @Changi there. Very nicee, loves the seaview, that beautiful sunset and sunrise. Of course, sitting on the roof alone in that morning was nice. Met new friends. The party was funnn, Joyce bought two 145cm height speakers. Blast music, disco, remixs. The guard came pressing that doorbell. We eat, talktalktalk. Everynight didn't sleep, stayed up watching cartoon, BBQ, and chitchats. Drank 6-8 cans of Carlsberg. Thanks to the shortage of water. Then played games, another 3 of Leos. DD; - - - - Even walked to Canadian Pizza and bought 2mediums. The last morning, all was asleep, only i was awake. Sat on the roof for about 3o mins and made my way to the beach. No people, very peaceful, listening to the waves pushed into the shore, wrote words on the sand, photographed the sunrise. What can be more nice than this. When I just have to sit on the cold sand, think back everything in the past. Singing songs softly. I wished you could see that beautiful sunrise. - - - I'm gonna restart all over again, gonna see if I still misses you, thinks of you, - - - and still fall for you.. |
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posted : Tuesday, June 9, 2009
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Before you, my life was like a moonless night.
Very dark, but there were stars—points of light and reason… and then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything. |
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posted : Monday, June 8, 2009
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Today is the worst day than everyday in my life.
To know that my relative passed away, I hate this year, veryvery much. I blame myself for this, I even cried infront of Jinyi Vanessa Yuhan! - - - The weakside of me is shown, no longer that Happy-Go-Lucky Nittaya. - - - - - - At least Jesus loves me, he gave me 4days @EastCoast Chalet. For me to let go of everything, to forget everything, everything about you. Of course, I'm gonna appeciate it to the fullest.. It's almost time that I should give up on someone who will never gonna fall for me. But what if the time is too fast and I can't make it to give up on the feelings and forget about you ? - - - Third blogskin created. http://blogskins.com/info/274524 |
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posted : Sunday, June 7, 2009
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Don't find love, let love find you.
Thats why it called falling in love, because you don't fall, you just fall. - - - - - I tried to go on like I never knew you. I'm awake but my world is half asleep. I pray for this heart to be unbroken, But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete. - Voices tell me I should carry on, But I am swimming in an ocean all alone.. - - - - Today was muchmuch more fun than yesterday. @Joo Seng, I was alone at first, for almost 2 hours. JunWei Nigel Jasmine accompanied me then I decided to go bubble tea shop, again. Alot people were playing soccer and basketball. Someone called me, not by my name. I didn't know it was me or who ever so I just continue walking. I was sure nobody would know its me , I wore a dress. Waited for JinYi YuHan Vanessa at bus stop, they arrived in about 1o mins. I got cookies from Vanessa. :DD We walked and talked before going in the soccer there. The match was very funny. - - - - About 6.35 we went to food court, Marcus LinHan Ramesh asked for poker cards so we could play later, I told them I dont have it. We continue to walk before I ran back to tell them I shall buy a new one. Marcus was like, YES! Good, gogogo! Alot of funneh things happened, Lazy-ed to type. :P Heyyyy, check out my first&second blogskins :D Must appeciate it, made by myself. :DD - - http://blogskins.com/info/273318 -first one. http://blogskins.com/info/273334 -second one. - - - Thanks yeap RAE, for your supportive respond. - - - I realised something I never realise before, (like duhhh) Back 6-7 months, i thought falling for you wasn't everything I have got to do. Now I realised, you are everything. |
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posted : Friday, June 5, 2009
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IT'S FRIDAYY,
and I didn't go school. Nevermind, girls day out! :DD - - - - lame. |
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IT'S FRIDAYY,
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posted : Thursday, June 4, 2009
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Tomorrow is FRIDAY,
of course its friday and I'm sure everybody knows that. I cannot wait for tomorrow, someone's gonna be back. Nevermind, its lame. Today went Bugis Street with Vanessa, Ramesh cannot make it. Bought 3 dress, Hahahah. Am I a dress-lover now, I dont know. :) - - - - Got presentation tomorrow, still haven't do, arghhh. Mucho thanks to Aliyah's messages, about him. I can't concentrate, thinks of him too much. I'm a crazy freako, real crazy. I have been thinking alot lately, of course my headache comes back. Was he referring to me about that monkey on the back? I must be a curse to everybody. Just as I thought, fantasy dream wishes wont come true. Miracle don't exist. There ain't fairy tale with a happy ending, there always a twist in the story. The village-girl still fell for the charming prince, but he falls for the beautiful princess. Love songs don't cure, I am sure. They said, don't be sad and stop. Move on along. Everybody wish they could, but they can't. Its like a tattoo, you can never get it off, it sticks to you everywhere you go, never let go. What else can you expect in your life. It just gonna end with a unfinished heart without you.. |
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posted : Wednesday, June 3, 2009
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This few days was funn.
Yesterday didnt use computer because was folding hearts. Reaching 500 soon. Friday is coming, of course I'm happy. Linhan Ramesh Marcus are coming down everyday. We always play 'asshole' taiti, I was always the asshole. - - - - Tomorrow gonna go find mama. Head to Bugis Street afterwards for something important. My headache always back nowadays, of course, I will lost my voice, very quiet, everything that is not me. It had stopped for quite long time, but it came back maybe because I thinks of matters too much. Gotta eat medicine everyday, so bitter, I would rather die. Upcoming plan for next week is Movie with Jooseng-peeps. Friends are welcomed! :D Interested? Tagg or SMS me, thnks. - - - - I won't say a single words, just support you from far where you will never notice. If you're bored, I can share with you my story. If you're sad, I can be the shoulder to cry on. If you're happy, I will be someone who is very happy too. If you're angry, I can be a wall for you to scold. If you're scared, I will the one who covers your eyes. Even you think i'm irritating, I will keep my talkings to silent. You says my miracle won't happen, people says I did too much. But you will never know, one will do anything for that person. And what else can I say if you likes someone else. I may seems like I'm so stress over it, and actually I am. Not thinking that its gonna be me, but thinking that will I ever be able to see you from far again? What if I contacts you, but you ignored? What if the fairy tale never come to an end, but more monsters and witches attacks? That lala land would be gone, wouldn't it? I don't mind just watching you for far, at least. I wants to be with you, of course I do. We can be friends , even enermy because my feelings for you can hardly change, Paris. |
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posted : Monday, June 1, 2009
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         Today late for supp class. I DID rushed but the passenger are too slow. Class was funn, i messages peep all the time. Phone's vibration very loud, nearly got caught. AND, I'm sitting right beside the only prefect in the class. How lucky. She always nudge me whether I take out the phone. But no use, I still use it. Hahaha. Then decided to watch Dance, Subaru @1pm @AMK hub. My class finished @12.3o , Vanessa and I dashed out the room straight when Ms Kwok said go home. We ranranranran all the way to the bus stop, waited 1o mins, bus still not here. -O-!! Selina came, within a minute her bus came, we was like .. WTH!? - - - - 1oo came, no choice so we aboard. Changed bus for almost like 3 times. Reached AMKhub @1.15 , Michelle'dj Lisha Patricia was already waiting. I snatched the popcorn in michelle'dj 's hand and quick-walked to the cinema and eateateat. Not long, Patricia asked it back. I took the drink instead. Passed around the snacks, in the end, I finished the popcorn because I snatched and hide! :DD The movie was real nice, dancing. Very touching, I cried mann, OMG! After movie, all seperate go home. Jinyi called me to wait for her , she's on the way. Vanessa and me waited for an hour then she came. Smack her upside down. - - - Took bus back to Joo Seng, I called Ramesh. He didnt want come down at first, but I felt really sick so my tone damn sad, he agreed. I thought he was joking so I just sit @the void deck with Jinyi Vanessa and Nigel, who just came down, I was folding hearts. They said I no-life. I have one , actually. Thats why I'm folding all this. Fold and smile, I seemed like have mental problem. Ramesh came, they talktalk, I was still folding hearts. They went to playground, I folded 3 more hearts and went over too but go there fold. They played blind mice, its like Ramesh is the mice. The other three ran everywhere, with their feet on ground. So funny. Shadow and Shani came soon later. Ramesh and Vanessa insist that I should stop folding and join them. I refused. Ramesh threatened and said that he gonna call Paris. I didnt believe and continued folding. Then Ramesh was on the phone. "You're sucks at acting, Obama" , but he continues to talk, about me blahblahblah. convincing for Paris to come down. Jinyi went over to hear, she was shocked and said its really him on the phone. I thought that Jinyi might put on an act too, suddenly I DID heard someone from the phone. Screamed, " OMG!! RAMESHHHHHHHHH! " . Stupid siah, he did call. Then I went on with "OMG!?" for more than 2o times. Later Ramesh said Vanessa is fat, Vanessa started chasing him "everywhere". I meant it, they ran from block 14-18 , going back and again. Then I sat on a chair under the tree, Ramesh threw something, he said aimed wrong, Vanessa was just standing before me. I shouted, do I look like Vanessa even abit. Shadow Nigel Shani Jinyi started laughing as well as Ramesh. He threw more, now I was sure that it is on purpose. I chased him, but now all of us chase too. Shadow sat back and enjoy the amazing race that lasts for a hour. - - - We went over to the basketball court. They played soccer, Marcus joined. Later, we play 'asshole' taiti. Its like suppose to be 4 players, we have 6. Hahahaha. I'm the asshole for five times. That sucks mann. DD; About 8plus, all decided to go home. Jinyi and I walked to the bus stop half way, forget that I no coins, walked back to mama shop. Bought BANANA CHOCOLATE, cute siah the container. yellow and of course, monkeyyy. :DDDD - - - Walked by his block. I called Aliyah. Suddenly, she was actually downstairs but told me she's in the living room. So I said void deck is her living room, she said yes and we joked around. She left and we continue walking along the back of the void deck. Right downstairs infront of Paris's room window, Jinyi shouted 'I LOVE YOUU!', then we both laughed and of course, ran away. We chatted alot. Reached home, bath and eat, do compo and use computer. - - - He likes a girl, who she might be? I'm so confused. DD; He wouldnt give me any clueclue. DD; But I still fell for him .. He wants her but something is stopping him, what's that thing ? I wish I know .. parisparisparisparisparisparis! Forever you. Gonna miss you real lot during this time. Will you appreciate it or don't give a damn? I will miss seeing your face, cheeese. Must enjoy this 4days aite ! smile,laugh,play ! :DDD - - - - - - - Another star, I hope my dream would come true.. |
nittaya j. i'm just me, aint no superhero. 
